so excited

"deep down a n**** need guidance"--phonte of little brother

i'm a pretty cool, calm, and collected type of guy. i have the same issues that most people have. i wonder about the economic crisis and who is the best person for that oval office job.

sometimes, i think that i am too calm. i mean why is it that people freak over things, but yet i remain cool in the same situation? i think that i am simply wired differently. i'm not the type that will get overexcited.

i really never saw my father get overexcited...or my mother for that matter. the only time i saw my father emotional was when he was angry; and for my mother when she was saddened by loss.

stuff happens...to better say that, (expletive deleted) happens. there's nothing we can do about it. the best thing we can do is keep moving.

it ain't like i'm saying that i'm not nor have i ever been emotionally invested in something. i'm simply saying that if the milk spills, clean up your mess and get some more or get something different.

i guess i learned that lesson early in life. i grew up playing sports and the teams i was on lost a whole lot. the teams i were on for the most part were like 1-13 of something like that. i cried after ever loss because i wanted to win so badly. i still haven't lost that mentality of wanting to win...but what's most important is that i'm now not afraid to lose.

life doesn't end after one loss or setback or hangup or whatever you want to call it. if you dwell on that one mistake...you will end up missing out on so much of a life that you could be enjoying.

that's the word of the day